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i don’t feel good today….i’m close to giving up…huhuhuhu

la lang….

hey! i know you’ve been through alot tay…. i hope i was of help… don’t worry….we can do this……these are just some of life’s trials……. just hold on… the whole family is with you….. i know it wasn’t easy…and i know it’s still hard now…i’ve known of your endless sleepless nights…of the restless times you had to work far from us….of the pains that you’ve been through…i hope i can do more than what i’ve done…….but….i’m afraid…that’s all i know of…… if only i can make things better for all of us…and lessen the burden in your heart… i would have done it already…..but i can only do nothing….huhu it pains me to see you hurt….not knowing where to go to…. where to run to…… i’m sorry….. i failed you….tay, just want you to know that i’m doing what i can to ease the burden…….. hope someday i can do something to make you feel good…. better….comfortable…..you and nanay…you mean the world to me…. thanks for everything…. eventhough i’m so darn lazy at times…especially before…. even if i used to be a brat… you still cared…. and up to now, you’re the first person i run to in times of needs….just wanna thank you for all the sacrifices just to portray the role of a father to us…even if it means, giving up a good career in manila before…..even if it means you’ll be away from lola and your siblings…… thanks! and i’m sorry for all thetroubles and pains that i might have caused you…i’m sorry for the times that i’ve been stubborn…. for all the things that i’ve done wrong…. for the words i’ve said that i wish i could take back…i’m so sorry tay… lo siento papa….i never meant to be a bad daughter…. i was just used to everything that we had before… but i’m okay with it now…. i’ll do what i can to change the world tay just to make you and nanay and rex comfortable once again….i hope it isn’t late to change…….i love you so much tay…i just can’t utter the words when you’re around….i just seem not to…thanks!

classes again?????? ugh*** i wish my vacation was long enough for me to rest…. i’m kinda scared of the "DUTY" thing…kinda reminds me of "scrubs" and "Grey’s anatomy"…wehehehehe i dunno…i never got over the feeling…i mean uneasiness… despite the fact that this certainly isn’t the first time i’m going on my duty…oh well…g’Luck to me…hahaha

arggghhh!!!!!!!! err…i hate the thought of living in an apartment that’s so….errr…..never mind…thought i should just leave…. but….. don’t have a choice… i really need to find a new place!

i know that alot of times i’ve been stubborn…i know sometimes i hurt your feelings.. i know that most of the time i don’t really do what i should do… what i’m supposed to do…. i know that a couple of times i’ve broken your heart… but despite of it all..u still remained to be the wings beneath my wings… i never really told you that "i love you"…but you know i do… i know you’ve been through alot..since childhood till now…but you’ve always remained strong.. and i’m sooo proud of you… so much.. even if we clash sometimes..even if i don’t follow your commands at times… i can’t promise you that i’ll do my best to succeed in life… because i know that i might break that promise… i mean, if i had lived my life doing the best of my abilities, i would’ve made you and tatay proud of me…but for some reason, i always get lazy to do stuffs… but i would like to do better this time… and maybe sometime later, i’ll be giving my best to what i do…i just need a little more time to pour everything… i’d love it if you’ll be proud of me someday… for now… i’m sorry about all my mischieves…. all the things that i’ve done wrong.. all the troubles that i may have caused you and tatay… i’m sorry… i never meant to hurt you… and i just want you to know that no matter what, i’ll always be your little girl… i hope we get through all these together…y’know what i mean, right??? don’t worry… God won’t let us down…. *sigh*

anywayz, i just wanna Thank you for being there for us… for being a great mom… for…just about everything…. thank you so much! ego amo te mama!

i’m dedicating this song to my mom:

Ohhhh, oh, oh, oh, ohhh.
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
to never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, that’s your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
while you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that you’re my hero,
and everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the Wind Beneath My Wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,

but I’ve got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you’re my hero?
You’re everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the Wind Beneath My Wings.

Did I ever tell you you’re my hero?
You’re everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and I, I could fly higher than an eagle,
for you are the Wind Beneath My Wings,
’cause you are the Wind Beneath My Wings.

Oh, the Wind Beneath My Wings.
You, you, you, you are the Wind Beneath My Wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. You let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the Wind Beneath My Wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the Wind Beneath My Wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
so high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
thank God for you, the Wind Beneath My Wings…

i’m tired! really…. huhuhu got alot of things to do… don’t have enough time, no money…no help…huhuhu ;-(

gerald santos won the PPS grand showdown! hooooohoooo!!!! yehey! my bet won!!! hahahaha he’s real cute… and good… and nice… just great! wahaha